Falling in love (again)

I feel like this blog sometimes turns too much to complaining.  So tonight I am not complaining.  Instead, I am expressing my awe, amazement, love for my little baby boy.  I love how he is so cuddly, and whether he knows what he's doing or not, he reaches for me and hugs me.  And he holds me so tight I think he'll never let go (and sometimes he causes little bruises on my arms - but they're cute bruises because they come from him). 

Tonight I was putting him to bed.  Sometimes he falls asleep while nursing, but I'm trying to get him used to not doing that regularly.  Tonight he finished nursing and was still awake.  Carmen's boss gave us this nightlight that displays stars all over the ceiling which we just recently set up.  So he was laying in my arms staring in awe at the stars projected across the ceiling.  A couple times I leaned down and kissed his cheek or his forehead and he would half smile up at me.  Every once in a while he rolled over and curled more into my arms, or curled away from my arms.  Either way, it was endearing because he was making himself comfortable.   Finally I could tell his eyes were getting heavy, but because he was on his back he kept staring at the stars.  So I picked him up and laid his head on my shoulder and he was asleep in a minute.  [A funny note: at one point he leaned forward and almost fell asleep bent over with his head on my knee - I tried to get a picture but my phone won't take pictures in that dark of room without a really horrible jarring flash] 

I put him down in the crib and he rolled around a bit, opening his eyes a few times.  He'd grab my arm and cuddle with it and then roll over to get himself more comfortable.  Finally, he rolled over to his regular sleeping position and passed out for good.  I was happy for him, but part of me wanted to just crawl in the crib with him and cuddle the rest of the night. 

We're so lucky to have such a sweet little baby who is so adoring and so cuddly.  I'm going to miss this time once he starts running all over the place and wanting nothing to do with cuddling with his mom for an hour (or five minutes!). 

[I have some pictures to share, but the website isn't allowing me to upload them.  I'll try again later or tomorrow.]